In which it’s a good day to say thank you to God 1,000 times (#’s 437-450)

by Craig on July 11, 2011

In-which-it's-a-good-day-to-say-thank-you-to-God-1,000-times-(#'s 437-450)It’s just a thorn in my side,
we all have thorns,

I wrestle with this one each day,
today it wears the championship belt.

It ruffles and goads and bullies. If you read me a little you know my thorn is sleep. It’s been 15 years since I slept more than 4 hours in a row – and now 4 hours of sleep is mostly a dream that rarely happens.

Today my head is wrapped in fog, thinking is like squinting hard at something out of focus, and pain is magnified. I have to remind myself that I’m not really depressed – it’s chemicals in my brain, it’s lack of sleep.

So…

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it’s a good thing it’s Monday…

because Mondays are for thank you’s…

I heart that timing!!

Thank You God…

#437 … that although today – stringing words together is near impossible – it’s possible.

#438 … that this thorn keeps a once arrogant spirit in check. I despise the thorn. I heart the humility.

#439 … that I know You could heal me, and it’s ok that You don’t.

#440 … that although the thorn shouts “Curse God” (Job 2:9) – it’s better by far to thank You instead. I’ll just thank You instead.

#441 … that I sometimes win the fight. I heart those days.

#442 … that it’s just my body,
it’s not my heart,
it’s not my spirit,
my spirit is Yours,
my spirit isn’t foggy,

#443 … that it doesn’t matter, You matter,
You are God,
and I’m Yours,

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#444 … that although I often think too much of me – as the deer longs for streams of water, so my soul longs for You. (Ps 42:2)

#445 … that there is a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance. (ECCL 3:4) and You see me through all those times. You have carried me, You carry us all.

#446 … that since I’ve known You I’ve never been alone, not through one trial alone, not through one hurt, not through one failure, not through any illness all by myself. At every moment You walk with me, in front of me, behind me, above me, to my side, around me and filling me…
and I can lean hard…
and sure…
and heavy…
into You.

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#447 … that I am not me without You. I heart that!! (((smile)))

#448 … that on one level this Bible is just a journal of Your relationships with people,
and I learn through it how You have been with others,
and I know you don’t change,
so I know it’s how you are…
with me,
with us.

#449 … that though I have very few things of this earth, the things of heart, and spirit You share like crazy with me.

#450 … that You know…
You have felt what we feel..
and a God who knows…
and a God who feels…
is a God who cares…

and this God is You,
our Creator, our strength,
our heart, our air,

and it is in You…

that we live…

and move…

and have our being. (Acts 17:28)

… and if you hearted this at all,
or if you think others might find it useful,
would you consider sharing it in one of the ways below?

{ 15 comments… read them below or add one }

Deborah July 11, 2011 at 9:16 am

Thanks for visiting. I guess it is a mom thing because the men in the family weren’t so keen on the longer hair. ha.

Love your post today.

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Craig July 11, 2011 at 4:17 pm

thank you Deborah, and it is a mom thing – definitely is. God bless and keep you and all of yours.

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Dawn July 11, 2011 at 9:21 am

Dear Craig,

My favorite from your list today:

#447 … that I am not me without You. I heart that!! (((smile)))

It made me think of who I’d be without Him. There was nothing there. I could not even get an image. Perhaps that is for the best. Without His sacrifice, I’d be un-look-upon-able! With Him I’m at least socially acceptable. If I could just get that “self” to die…it hasn’t happened so far, not this side of heaven!

Thanking Him for grace,
Dawn

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Craig July 11, 2011 at 4:22 pm

“un-look-upon-able” – I had to look that one up to find out what it meant. (◠‿◠) Very theological word! And accurate too – way accurate ! Although I think after our Lord came – and this is just my opinion – the good things that we try to do – albeit imperfect – the ones that used to be as “filthy rags” before the work of the Cross – now they make him smile – kind of like when a child draws a picture – and his mom puts it on the fridge. It’s no work of art – but it’s treated like gold – and it makes the moms smile. I think when we try to follow the law of love as best we can – he smiles like that. God bless you Dawn – and I am totally NOT me without him (◠‿◠)

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Joy July 11, 2011 at 12:45 pm

Craig, you encouraged and challenged me greatly today with your thanks words in spite of the fog of fatigue. Thank you for them. I find such comfort is #450 — that he knows and has felt this too.

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Craig July 11, 2011 at 4:26 pm

I have learned, Joy, that if I am to claim to be Christian – then I have to acknowledge both with words, and toward God, and toward others, and in my heart – that I am blessed regardless of circumstances. I’m blessed because I am His. I’m blessed because the only God of everything loves me. and Amen joy – every single thing we feel, he has felt. He didn’t need the experience to “become” empathetic – because he was perfect – but I guess maybe we needed to know that – to be able to understand and accept his empathy better. Thank you Joy, and God bless and keep you and all of yours.

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Cora July 11, 2011 at 4:40 pm

At first, I said, “Oh fooey!” because Dawn picked my favorite from your list today. I loved her comment so much, that it left me with nothing else to add —- until I read your response, Craig. I LOVE the idea that there’s a stick figure drawing of me on God’s fridge and that he values it as Gold and it makes Him smile! I really like “un-look-upon-able” as a word. In fact, I think it belongs in my “corral!”

I can only pray that I will be the kind of “thorn bearer” that you have been, Craig, if God so chooses to afflict me with one. You have been such an wonderful example to us! Thank you for that!

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Craig July 11, 2011 at 4:48 pm

Cora, I think that we all have stories. I also think that the more of our spiritual inadequacies we fix ourself – the less discipline is needed – and maybe the fewer the thorns as well – and maybe not so big and drastic as this one. But I knew so much of God – so much – and given the amount of light I had – well – I needed to be humbled. And I’m not so sure that he gives us the the thorns always – I AM sure that he decides whether or not to intervene – in my case I’m thinking if there was to be intervention it may have come by now – but regardless – if it stays I love him – if he takes it I love him – I just kind of love him. And thank you for your kind words as always Cora, and God bless you!

ps I sometimes don’t like to write – by the way – the hard thank you’s – I don’t want to sound like I’m being whiny – know what I mean? I’m thankful you that you took it in the spirit that it’s offered.

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jeana July 11, 2011 at 6:03 pm

Beautiful list of the tug between our flesh and the world and our Creator. I could’ve of written a list similar a few years ago. He has felt as we have and does absolutely care. Thank you for your thoughts written out today.

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Craig July 11, 2011 at 6:12 pm

Jeana, thank you, from my heart, thank you. I wrote a post a while back about how I thought that on the Cross Our Lord Really did feel every single hurt, pain, sorrow, failure – everything – EVERYTHING evil and bad that happens to all of us – and that has happened to all of us throughout history. So even what he did not experience in his 33 years walking on the earth – he has – and does experience. He really DOES know – he’d care anyway because he is love and that’s what love does – but there’s something about this thought that really gets me by the heart. Thank you again for your kind words Jeana – and God bless and keep you and all of yours.

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Debbie July 11, 2011 at 10:24 pm

Well , I loved Cora and Dawn’s pick and comments. :) Sooooo . . .since they are all good and true and heartfelt anyway, I’m going for #450, the last one. Thank you Craig for encouraging us to be thankful even for the hard stuff. :) Praying for you during the hardest longest sleep-even-less nights and the foggy-pain-filled days that follow. God cares and so do I.

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Craig July 12, 2011 at 12:49 pm

Debbie, first of all thank you for prayer – I’m actually getting a little bit used to people praying for me (◠‿◠). and before I really thought about it I used to it’s good that while Jesus was alive then it was “necessary” for Our Lord to feel our pains while he was on this earth – so he can empathize – but God doesn’t “need” anything other than himself to do anything. So I think the fact that Our Lord holds all of our suffering in his hands – that’s for us – not for him. God bless you Debbie.

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Susan@ThoughtfulSpot July 12, 2011 at 3:56 pm

I heart this never-occurred-to-me-before one: “that on one level this Bible is just a journal of Your relationships with people”. . .even my journaling I inherited from my Father!. . .blessings, Dear One, and thank you for your words of encouragement . . .means more than you can know

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Craig July 12, 2011 at 4:20 pm

I heart that particular thank you on the list too Susan – that our Bible really is story after story after story of how God related with either a person – or the nations – and how he handles them in the same way He handles us because God never changes – I heart that. And…

I heart that you used “heart” as a verb (◠‿◠) ღ ♥ ❥♡

God bless you Susan, and thank you too.

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A. August 1, 2011 at 11:28 am

Love the owl photo! I feel like the eyes-shut owl and God is the ever-watching, caring, right-up-close-to-us owl. also love the kitty photo and the reflective girl photo. thank you craig, thank you.

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