In which there’s the most important letter…

by Craig on October 21, 2011

My mom was dying, I had to share the gospel with her - this is how...source

I asked everything…
and listened to words and heartsounds…
and I knew now…
my mom knew the gospel…
but not.

And after the questions…this…

a letter, from son to mother…
one only this particular son could write…
to this particular mom…

I know now that the “one size fits all gospel” is not the gospel for loved ones.

Dear Mom,

Remember the letters you wrote to me when I was in trouble?

I hated them, but I needed them. Thank you.

You know there have been things I’ve been aching to share.
The things which have become so important to me.

My mom was dying, I had to share the gospel with her - this is how...source

The star you’ve seen me follow hasn’t faded this time – has it?

If we sat and talked, we’d get interrupted,
and I want to share the most important stuff in the world.

Before I go any further,
I have to say it’s incredible how strong you’ve stayed through all of this,
but it’s been absolutely no surprise,
and you’re still the best mom.

I can’t say that I know how you must be feeling, or thinking.
But I do know that your hope has its limits.
And I also know that support from your family isn’t always there.
And I know that there must be times when you just run out of fight.

We can give you love; though not perfectly, and not all the time.
We can give you gifts, but you know we sometimes forget.
And I know because you told me…
that no one has ever brought you more joy than me…
or caused so much heartache.

I know I’ve always – always – had your love – the best love.
And mom, there’s a better love than even that.

You know He is there, I know you do…
You know how patient he is…
You saw the tortured and wayward path I took to get to Him.

You understand his love much better than I.

Because you have always been there,
loving and giving…
you’re the mom.

You brought us into this world…
and you can take us out again. ツ

And what wouldn’t you do for any one of us?
Is there anything you wouldn’t do to protect us?
To care for us?
To help us when we need you?

How much do you love your babies?

I’ve never know a greater love than yours…
except for one…

My mom was dying, I had to share the gospel with her - this is how...source

Mom, the love you love us with, he has even more, for you…
You are His child…
a daughter of the only God…
Creator of the whole universe…
and he loves you…
even more than you love us…


…and so it begins.

How many times will you guys believe that I cry when I type?

But I’m sniffy…

and cry breathing…

and tears sting my eyes…

and there’s more…

the most important letter I’ve ever written…

so please…

come back.

{ 15 comments… read them below or add one }

Cora October 21, 2011 at 9:27 am

I’m not sure where my emotions are spilling — with the son writing this or the mother’s heart reading it. I only imagine a very stained letter — stained from tears of both writer and reader alike. It isn’t often that we have recorded for us the conversations of our souls — something to hold in our hands, see with our eyes and weep with our hearts. Isn’t it just like God, in all His grace and love, to work in such a way as this? Craig, I think back to all your posts about the fullness of time and then to how all this came together perfectly. . . only as HE can do it. Your “interview” and your letter has made me think back to my teen years when I began writing. It was the only way I could say anything as I was so shy. It started with a thank you letter to an adult who had impacted my life in a very deep way. I just couldn’t work up enough nerve to say it face to face. Since then, I’ve written a million letters and am a firm believer in the “lost art of letter writing.” I’m a sucker for pretty stationary, pens, fancy envelopes, etc.

I know this is a time of emotions coming to the surface as you share with us your stars. I feel them deeply, and feel like one of the chosen few to be able to share in these moments. Somehow, I know your Mom is looking on, smiling, and glad that the whole world now knows about a mother and her son and and her journey Home! Thank you for this!

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Craig October 21, 2011 at 4:37 pm

Cora, it really is a bit of magic to have this preserved. I think of the little bit of magic it is that we have the Gospels preserved – and the letters – and our whole Bible – it’s almost like God knows what he’s doing. No? ツAlthough I never thought I’d be sharing all of this on the interwebs. About the letter writing – it was always something I wanted to do – but just never did – this is one letter I had to write. I hope my mom doesn’t mind me spilling the beans like this – where she is – and what she’s about right now – all love – all the time – I suspect she’s okay with it. Thank you Cora, thank you, and God bless you as always.

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Felecia October 21, 2011 at 2:32 pm

Emotions raw.
The history you shared palpable.
Your words so deep and tender and true.
Your love swelling as you remember.
The love between a mother and a child aches with fullness of lives well lived..
Yes, of course I’ll be back, Craig. Silly Goose!
My world is richer for reading you …

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Craig October 21, 2011 at 4:40 pm

Felicia, it was a time my heart pounded to share the gospel like no other time. Where death meets life – that’s where faith hits the road the hardest. And I loved no one like I loved my mom. And Felicia, your words are kind – always kind – thank you for that. And God bless and keep you!

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Martha Orlando October 21, 2011 at 5:47 pm

Your letter to your mother . . . my eyes are swimming.

She was so blessed to have a son like you; you were so blessed to have her.

Thank you again, Craig, for your poignant words and heartfelt thoughts. Whether they leave me laughing or crying, they are ever inspirational.

May God bless, my friend.

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Craig October 22, 2011 at 6:31 am

that line she told me, Martha – nobody ever brought her as much joy or as much heart ache – I never know quite which way to take that, compliment or complaint. She was a good mom. She really never meant to introduce me to abuse – she thought she was introducing me to security. And once inside, she didn’t know what to do herself – but she went through hell – really went through hell. And her whole life was so much harder than any of us ever thought. I was lucky to have her, not the other way around. And yes, being able to point her to heaven was good – it was the best thing I’ve ever done in my life. So okay, in the end it was also good that she had me. I’ll make that one small admission. But more importantly it was important that I had our Lord. And one more thing, I’m sure glad I “have” you. God bless and keep you Martha, God bless!

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Debbie October 21, 2011 at 10:59 pm

I am listening to this so carefully, and understanding that it has to be personalized. Love that. Thank you and God bless you as you share!

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Craig October 22, 2011 at 6:34 am

I’m thinking now, with the loved one, it has to be TOTALLY personalized. All the little things we know about them, all the avenues we know to their heart, all the responses we know that they’ll have, all of this really should be taken into consideration if we know. And I’ve been guilty of handing out an “off the rack” gospel to people I love – and how wrong that is! I’m sure glad I didn’t do it with my mom – because as you can tell from her answers – she was very familiar with the “off the rack” gospel. Thank you Debbie, as always, thank you, and God bless!

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Layla Payton October 22, 2011 at 10:33 pm

As a mom of three boys, all I can say is…”Wow.”

P.S. You win the Cliffhanger Reward.

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Craig October 23, 2011 at 8:58 am

I heart cliffhangers – I never intended to be a cliffhanger guy – it’s just kind of come out naturally – all in its own ツ and you get it – I know you do – the love of God is greater than the love that even you have for your babies – and you know how great that love is. God bless you Layla – and thank you.

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Katie October 23, 2011 at 2:16 pm

I think the letter you wrote your mom is so heart felt and full of love. What a wonderful letter to your mother.

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Craig October 24, 2011 at 12:58 pm

Katie, first of all, sorry I’m late responding. And thank you – I heart this letter – I heart that it came from all of those questions that went before it – I heart that this was specifically written for her to meet her at the point of her doubts – at the point of her faith. It’ll probably be about four or five posts long – it was a long letter – but she didn’t get any pictures! ツ God bless you, Katie!

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Victoria Jenkins October 26, 2011 at 2:03 pm

Beautiful.

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Rose Raintree June 6, 2014 at 10:15 am

I stumbled onto your site this morning in search for things that will support the conversation I had with my neighbor this morning whose mother is dying and he does not know her spiritual condition and I was encouraging her to have that conversation with her. This neighbor is so new in walking spiritually and she is still struggling in many areas and just this past year was reunited with her mother after years of not speaking after I shared my testimony last year with her about my journey with my own now deceased Mom.
This letter is beautiful and thank you for sharing your heart I posted this on my facebook and sent it to my friend in hopes it will be of encouragement to her to have this important conversation with her Mom soon.

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Rose Raintree June 6, 2014 at 10:16 am

This should have been she does not know her spiritual condition. my neighbor is a woman

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