In which there is hard love | Remembering Sara

by Craig on September 25, 2012

gitzngirl Sara Frankle choose joy choosejoy

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It was one year ago that Sara left this earth. I’m remembering that time…life, death, life…and what I wrote about it all, this time last year on Deep Into Love.

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Sara published a post in in October 2009…

But as the years progressed and I lost more and more of what I thought defined me, as I found myself in the hospital, unemployed and on disability, I realized that being a servant meant all or nothing. A line was drawn in the sand and I had to choose my fear, or I had to choose to completely trust Him. It had to be an all or nothing choice because one cannot exist if the other is true.
I chose to trust, and I’ve never looked back.

(and me? I roar like a lion and hide like a mouse)

She also wrote…

I can be tired, I can be frustrated by my circumstances and exhausted from the pain, but I am never fearful of what is to come because I know that He is in control.

(and me? Oh me of little faith. I worry about every. single. thing)

And she wrote…

I have faith that He will take care of me, and He has given me fortitude and peace in my heart as I face the challenges my body inflicts on me.

(and me? I grumble because I never sleep – and my body breaks because of it – but not like Sara’s.)

In June 2008, fighting her body as her body fought her, she wrote this:

Life Goals:
1.    To not be ashamed to stand before God.
2.    To fulfill God’s plan by living the best life I can with what I am given.
3.    To be aware and present in every moment.
4.    To love what I have and not yearn for what I lack.
5.    To spread the Joy, not the fear.
6.    To be intentional in all things.

(And me? How do I match up with these?)

gitzngirl Sara Frankle choose joy choosejoy

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1. I won’t be ashamed – but only because of His Grace
2. I am trying so hard, so hard to be useful – sometimes I am
3. I’m always elsewhere – I try to be “here” but…
4. I do love what I have – but I also yearn for what I don’t
5. I spread joy and hope like dandelion seeds but never allow either in
6. I’ll be better – at least, that’s my intention.

In April of 2011 Sara wrote…

And no matter how scared Jesus was in that garden…he took the hard love, the hard pain and the hard walk with that cross and let them put nails in His hands. He did that for us…every cruel word. Every cruel strap of the whip. Every fall and every stumble and every sweat bead of pain. He took the hard as a human man because He loved us. Hard.

There is no love so great.
And the One of whom she wrote?
This One she’ll meet, so soon.

And will he hold her close to welcome her?

I don’t know how it works.

But Our Lord will love her like he always has…

she is the apple of His eye…

gitzngirl Sara Frankle choose joy choosejoy

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as are you.

He. Will. Show. Her. Love.

He’ll love hard…

like he always does.

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Here are all of this month’s Sara posts.
You might heart them as much as I.

In which it’s the small things
 Love remembers when eternity touches time
 In which sorrow submerges joy
 Love prays peace, courage, faith, and knowing
In which are “eternity touching time” thank you’s to God
Love is eternity touching time

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Debra September 25, 2012 at 3:23 pm

As are you, Craig, the apple of his eye.

Life Goals:

To love more fully, as he loves me
To be the servant I’ve failed to be
To be eternally grateful everyday
To celebrate life fully while there’s still breath in me
To milk every moment for all its worth
To live more mindfully, conscientiously
To die to every ambition and attachment that distracts me from the Kingdom
To bear 100 fold fruit by abiding 24:7 in the Vine
To practice holy living instead of preaching it

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Craig September 26, 2012 at 11:56 am

Debra, that makes a beautiful prayer. Last night I woke at least 25 times in seven hours of “sleep” – so the brain is a little foggy today – and the dreams were terrible and I remember every detail, because I woke up so much, and so the emotions are down, but the spirit is willing – even though the body is weak – I just finished this as a prayer – so thank you. God bless you. Choose joy!

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Debra September 26, 2012 at 1:23 pm

Craig, feel free to tell me about those dreams. There is a need to examine what’s going on in your inner world beneath the surface. Perhaps they will point out what your conscious mind won’t tell you. God may be trying to convey what you’ve blocked in waking hours. Dreams are important, both the good and bad ones. Consider all the Biblical dreams and how, metaphorically, they revealed truth.
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Craig September 26, 2012 at 4:08 pm

done 【◔‿◔】

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Martha Orlando September 25, 2012 at 8:42 pm

And, He loves you, Craig, hard and deep and wide. Sara’s words recalled here touched my heart so deeply. It’s as if the streams of my soul were running dry until I read them . . . do you see? Do you know?
Every life touches another when most needed. God makes sure of that. We may wait impatiently for His answer, but that is ineffectual. We must learn to wait for answers in His time.
Sara’s time . . .
Our time . . .
How connected we are, my friend. I just wrote a blog about God’s time here http://marthaorlando.blogspot.com/2012/09/its-been-long-long-time-coming-but-i.html
Hope you will have a chance to read this and contemplate even more on God’s great love.
Blessings to you, Craig, always!

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Craig September 26, 2012 at 12:00 pm

I’ve been feeling pretty isolated – pretty alone lately. Even when among others. Thank you for the reminder – I’ve written it – comes across better when someone writes to me ツ. All of God’s children are connected. And by the time you read this I’ll already have been on your blog and left a comment ツ God bless you Martha! Choose joy!

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A. September 27, 2012 at 12:49 am

Craig, I am so touched by rereading Sara’s goals, and her description of Jesus’ hard love, hard sacrifice for us. I am writing them down so I can reread them…hopefully daily.

I am also blessed and encouraged by the comments here-yours and others. All this ‘I am touched, I am blessed’ sounds and feels so selfish. Yet, it is true. So I hope each person here, including yourself, is also blessed somehow in all this sharing and writing.

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Craig September 27, 2012 at 9:26 am

from nearly day one of this blog you have been a bright star A. I still treasure a little card with a cat on it. God bless you. Choose joy!

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