I had no choice.
It happens once, maybe twice a year.
This time it won.
I just slept for 90 minutes.
Before that was 15o or something HOURS without sleep.
Some of my mind is back as I write this…only some.
And I remember every slip down the dark tunnel of disappear ,…..every.one.
With no sleep you lose control – but you don’t lose a memory of it.
I wish I could.
I’m sorry I’ve been gone.
If I get a little more sleep today…If my body lets me stay asleep…just a little while,,,just a little while,,,it has no problem letting me fall asleep…but stay asleep more than 1o minutes at a time…I’ll tell you more…i miss writing for you…i miss you guys…I miss having a brain that can write…I remember every hallucination, every nightmare I had with my eyes open, every shadowy figure in the room, every heartbreaking memory played out in front of my eyes – and I know – none of it was real…
I fought as hard as I could..
.I’ll tell you more…if I just get.some.sleeptoday…some
miss u guys
my last post explains a little – I’ll link.…